Giving up because of someone else

My plan is to sometime soon start a fast. The thing is however, I want to first have a week of eating raw fruit and vegetables, then a week of juice fasting, then onto water fasting for a while. Then to come out of the water fast, I would have another week of juice fasting, and then start eating food again. My sister and I have discussed this on a few occasions. I think that if we participated in the fast together, that I would be a lot more driven and it would be more on a competitive level, which is what keeps me going. This is all fine, however, my sister and I were going to start today. We got up in the morning, and cut up our fruit for breakfast together, and sat at the kitchen bench to eat. I felt in control, and I felt like I was going to survive the whole day. I thought that with my sister by my side, the process of fasting would be simple. Off to school we went, with our pre-washed carrot for lunch. It was at lunch time when I saw my sister and her friend walking past me at school. With my water bottle in hand, I noticed my sister from a distance, and was prepared to glance at her, as if to say 'we're in this together', however  when I walked past her, I noticed she was eating a bread roll with Nutella inside it. She had a grin on her face. She looked at me and said 'I don't want to do it anymore'. I stopped. I looked at her and asked why, and she said that because christmas was coming up, she didn't want to fast. It's not that much of a big deal at all. I just walked away and filled up my drink bottle. For the remaining hour of school, I managed to be strong for about 30 minutes, and then caved when I was confronted by a bad of sour worms. I said 'no thank-you', but as the bag went around the circle, I turned back and said, 'actually, I might have a few'. I don't think that I would have given up so easily if my sister hadn't given up. My point is that fasting and restricting/dieting is so much more easier when you have someone by your side. When you know that if you give up, you're not only disappointing yourself, but disappointing the other person. So if you're having trouble with sticking to fasts or rules that you have set for yourself, involving eating or anything else, get a friend or someone to help you out. I think online ones go by the name 'ana buddy'. I'm planning on water fasting tomorrow, giving it another go just for a day or so. I'll keep you posted, and I hope you all have a lovely day.

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